At this point, a late period is usually a good sign. I'm 6 days late, but the pregnancy tests are all negative. I tested many times. They all display the same words "not pregnant."
Every time I take the test, I tell myself "this will be it...". Everyday that goes by without my period arriving gives me a little hope. But now, my doctor says that something could be wrong. It could be thyroid...it could be early menopause...it could be something else. Seriously?
What is frustrating is that child bearing is something that millions of women all around the world have done. Some without any care or without any planning. It should be as natural as losing your baby teeth or learning how to walk. But somehow, I'm learning how to walk in a land mine. I carefully try to find my way and BOOM! There's another mine.
I try so hard to be positive. I am telling myself that I can't possibly have thyroid or early menopause (did I mention I'm 33 years old?). I eat healthy (always organic, always home cooked meals), I exercise, I take care of myself. What else can I do? I don't understand. I'm losing so much control of my body and I hate that. I feel at a loss...and the sad part is that I know things could get worst...I'm almost expecting them to get worst at this point because I'm so used to bad news these days.
I do pray to God that nothing is wrong and that somehow I get the strength to get through this, on top of everything else.
Stay strong. I battle these thoughts every day myself. It makes me so bitter that we have to deal with these thoughts yet there are millions of women who don't and never will and are blissfully unaware. All you can do is take it one day at a time. Hugs.
ReplyDeleteI long for that naivety that other women experience. But elas! The good news is that it was a false alarm. I'm well and everything is 'normal' according to the doctors. Hugs to you Ashleigh.
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