It Did Happen

Dear Leo,

Yesterday, as I was walking home from work I felt that losing a baby couldn't have happened to me. It sometimes does feel like it happened to someone else. It's just too awful for it to have happened to me. 

This feeling is pretty surreal. For a split second I forget that we went through this. It feels like a bad dream. The return to reality is always harsh: "our baby did die". Take in those words "our baby died". It sounds so horrible...It feels even worse.