I’m not writing as much as I would like to. Part of it is me
getting home completely exhausted at the end of my work day. I keep running in
my head all the things I need to write about, but then never get it done. So
here goes.
A few days shy of week 20, my dear husband (DH) and I went
for the anatomy scan at the hospital. We were excited as it was going to be the
longest and most detailed ultrasound and we were going to find out the sex of
the baby. This was the first time DH was present at an ultrasound. He was
really amazed, took some videos and pictures. It was sweet to see him so
excited. I was lying there, just trying not to fall asleep.
We did find out that our little baby is a boy. The
ultrasound tech said it was very clear that it is a boy. I’m happy. I didn’t
really have a preference. I would like to have 1 boy and 1 girl and I didn’t
mind the order in which that came. Although, I always thought that it would be
nice for a little girl to have a ‘big brother’. Let’s see if that happens in a
few years! JWe got tons of pictures of the ultrasound. We could see our son (yeah, I guess I can say that now!) open/close his mouth, stretch out, move a lot. It is becoming more real, although I do often forget that I’m pregnant. I am definitely showing now, but not enough to make it obvious.
The most exciting news has been feeling the baby move. A few
days after the ultrasound (so at week 20), I clearly started feeling some
movements. I felt some stuff before, but I wasn’t sure if it really was the
baby…but now I’m sure. It’s pretty clear. It’s been fun to feel him. I like
keeping my hand on my tummy as much as possible (while watching TV, while lying
down, while on the bus) to feel him. DH can’t feel him yet though. I look
forward for him to be able to feel the baby too. It’s something that is nice to share.
This past weekend I bought the first set of baby stuff.
Compared to other women that I discuss with online, I’m a little late. Most of
them have bought tons of things, including cribs, toys, clothes, diapers…this weekend,
I really went out to buy myself some
maternity work pants and bras, but then decided to stop at the GAP since I had
a $20 coupon. I went in and headed straight to the sales rack. Baby clothes are
so cute, but they can be so expensive…so I decided not to go crazy. I got 4
onesies and with my coupon, that came out to $5.43. I think that’s quite a deal.
I got home, took pictures of the clothes and sent it to my sister. Today, I
also sent the pictures to my parents.
I had what they call ‘sciatic pain’. It’s a sharp pain on
the left buttocks. Basically, whenever I would get up after sitting for a
while, I would feel the pain and have a hard time walking. I remember feeling a
slight discomfort at week 7 onwards, but recently it got much worst. I often
had to limp for a while before being
able to walk properly. My chiropractor and my fitness trainer gave me a couple
of stretches to try out and recommended I roll on a foam roller or tennis ball.
Last week, I worked out 4 days and suddenly the pain stopped. I think I need to stay active – at least, that’s
the learning I took from this experience. I haven’t felt the pain in over a
week now. Knock on wood!
I feel a little ashamed of the fact that I don’t feel
connected to the baby yet. I thought I would feel connection and love as soon
as I found out the sex and then I
thought I would feel it when I started feeling him move. But still nothing. I
always thought I’d be the kind of person who would be totally in love with my
unborn child…I sure hope this doesn’t mean I’m a bad mom. I hope that will
change soon. My DH though, has been really cute. Whenever he gets home he says
hi to me and then rubs my belly and says ‘hi baby’. He often kisses my belly
and talks to the baby. I haven’t been able to just talk to the baby yet, but I
do try to sing out loud and play the piano often for him.
I do feel a little overwhelmed by all that needs to be done.
I need to seriously start a baby registry, but I don’t know what to get. That’s
my main problem. Some of my friends who were recently pregnant said they would
help me out. I do need help. I’m so clueless. I’m hoping to get most of what I
need through gifts so that we don’t have to spend too much. Since DH is
starting his business, he is not earning a salary yet, which means I’m the
breadwinner. I think that we’re doing really well, but I guess we don’t have as
much money as we did a few months ago. Ideally, I would love for the baby to
have his own room, to decorate it nicely for him, like most women do…but I think
we’ll keep things simple. We live in a 1-bdrm apartment and although we are
looking for a 2-bdrm, it might not happen since rental prices in this city are
skyrocketing. Anyway, we’ll probably put the crib in our bedroom and make one
of our dressers the ‘baby’s dresser’. I know
that the baby doesn’t really mind if he has his own room or not...but I still
wish I could do that for him.
I’m still feeling good, not sick, not in pain. I feel lucky
that it’s been so good so far. I know many women who are already suffering at
this stage. This baby has been good to me. J
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